I am nothing.
I lie in my darkness.
There is anger first,
Then a desperate sadness.
The aches inside,
Cry for Death's touch.
The Numbness,
Pushes everyone away.
I cry out for Death,
But she will not come.
I scream for understanding,
For others,
And myself.
But no one hears me.
Except loneliness.
She always accompanies me.
And I love.
Yet hate her.
Whenever I leave,
Leave my Shadows.
I become invisible,
Except, to loneliness.
She stays through everything.
She keeps others away from me,
Success,
Pride,
Laughter,
Joy,
Love.
She keeps me to herself.
Sharing me only with her sisters.
Pain and suffering,
The hand in
I thought I might update this thing concidering that it has been almost a year since my last journal entry... About time, ne?
Well, I've had a productive President's Day Weekend. I finished and submitted my latest IaOoD request. I've bought my membership for AWA this fall and reserved my hotel room. (Actually got one the Winfrey this year! Yay!) I even am writing a bit and drawing something for myself. ^^v All while watching the Olympics, no less! ^^v Ice dancing, Super Gee, Bobsledding, Speed Skating, even Curling has caught my interest. I've enjoyed watching most of the sports shown, even if the commentary annoys me at times.
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Here's a bit of irony... after many long months I finally get the both the time and inclination to update my site and I can't access it! According to Freeservers, there is no account with my web address http://serenityscourt.tvheaven.com . That makes little sense to me since I can go the site. I can access the site contents. I point futilely at the screen and say 'look morons, a web site!'. But all for naught. :growl: And of course, since my account 'does not exist' I can't get into the 'priority helpdesk' that I'm bloody well paying for! And to top it all off, there is no one home at their offices until Monday on the one phone number
Well, folks, I owe ya'll an explanation as to where I've been for the past month+. At first I was just spending all of my time getting ready for AWA10 (which was a huge blast! Angelwing and I had a great time). I was all settled down to get back to some serious drawing to catch up on my requests and such when my baby brother had a small accident.
I use the word small with great sarcasm, mind you.
He was trying out his brand new motorcycle, had it less than two blocks from his house when some idiot woman ran a stop sign and pulled right out in front of him. He laid the bike down so that he wouldn't ram into her and be catapulted over the
I commenting on all my friends and you are one of them (duh)! So, whats up? How go the art?
Did I tell you I love your style of art? So original and very missed with the world of computers these days... It's great to see people and the basics.
Thanks! Yep, I'm not much of one for the computer art! Mainly because I'm too cheap to go out an buy a descent program and too lazy to learn how to run it properly! Besides, I've spent too much time learning to draw to give up the old fashioned method.